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Crash Down: C. & C.S.’s Story

We knew we wanted to have our first child around age 25. We began trying and fell pregnant within the first couple months. I felt “off” but assumed it was a normal part of pregnancy. After visiting my doctor, I was told to go to the emergency department as it may be an ectopic pregnancyContinue reading “Crash Down: C. & C.S.’s Story”

I Knew Then: Sarah’s Story

My loss at 5 weeks, I started cramping really bad the night before and I knew I was losing my baby. That loss actually didn’t affect me the way my other two did. My second loss at 8 weeks 5 days was confirmed at my first ultrasound. I went in having a bad feeling. WhenContinue reading “I Knew Then: Sarah’s Story”

We Needed Each Other: Sarah & Michael’s Story

At 21 weeks gestation, I started having some mild bleeding and cramping. During an emergency ultrasound, they discovered that I was 2 cm dilated with bulging membranes. I was given the option to terminate the pregnancy, try a rescue cerclage and sew baby in, or expectant management. My husband and I knew the only optionContinue reading “We Needed Each Other: Sarah & Michael’s Story”

Mother Kangaroo: Melveena’s Story

On Saturday, January 29th, around 12 weeks pregnant, I woke up with pink spotting. An ultrasound was scheduled for Monday. The ultrasound tech eventually told me she was going to be right back with a doctor, who said, “I have some bad news. Your baby has no heartbeat and there is no blood flow.” TheContinue reading “Mother Kangaroo: Melveena’s Story”

Holding Space: Reisa & Michael’s Story

I had four losses all between 6–8 weeks. One miscarriage, two missed miscarriages, and one blighted ovum. Each had their own specific journey and experience that was unique to the child. In one, I felt like I was holding space for my child and sitting with the space between life and death, grieving for aContinue reading “Holding Space: Reisa & Michael’s Story”

I Have a Fighter: Stephanie’s Story

At 33 weeks, on a Friday, I started experiencing pain. That night I called 811 and was advised to go to the hospital. I was contracting but not progressing in labour; a few hours later I was sent home. The next day, I was still in pain. I started to track contractions, which were 8Continue reading “I Have a Fighter: Stephanie’s Story”

I Pray Every Day: Antonia & Branko’s Story

I lost my baby girl at 22 weeks. My water broke because of ureaplasma. I laboured for three days, but my cervix was not opening up at all, so they gave me injections. The pain was unimaginable, but the physical pain was even worse than that. I gave birth naturally, but she was too small,Continue reading “I Pray Every Day: Antonia & Branko’s Story”

Tidal Waves: Sara & Tyson’s Story

I had a normal and uneventful healthy second pregnancy up to 38 weeks. I noticed she wasn’t moving much and scheduled to have a non-stress test, but when I got to the clinic, they couldn’t find a heartbeat. That’s when I learned Maeve had died. I was rushed to the Royal Alex Hospital to getContinue reading “Tidal Waves: Sara & Tyson’s Story”

We Named Her Avery: Jen’s Story

When I close my eyes, I remember the day we found out we were pregnant. The days and weeks to come were filled with excitement, appointments, and announcements. At the time, my son Brayden was 13. Our family was going to grow to four. Number four was going to be a girl. We named herContinue reading “We Named Her Avery: Jen’s Story”

I Am Not Me: Danyelle & Mariusz’s Story

Emelina passed away at 38 weeks due to a true knot in combination with her cord wrapped around her neck four times. It rocked my world; her passing left me a shell. She should be eight years old. She instead is in an urn in our bedroom. The daughter we know nothing about: her likes,Continue reading “I Am Not Me: Danyelle & Mariusz’s Story”